my life feels like im walking through the woods alone. no where to go, no one in sight. dark and cold. which is the worst feeling that can even think of. I dont think i have ever been in this type of situation before. Im trying to make my life look so much more better then it is, and its hard. Its so hard to pretend that Im happy when im actually not. Its hard to look at the person in their eyes and tell them that your happy for them when your not.
I deserve to be happy...
I dont deserve to be sad or hurting, i didnt do anything wrong to be feeling like this. But i guess thats life.
Im trying my hardest to be happy and stay positive.
But I guess its not working out so well.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Just another rant
So I decided that its probably a good idea if i put everything towards guys and relationships on hold... a long hold.
There is so much that i have to do with just me, that guys take up to much time, effort and tears.
I need to go to school and start a carrier and its so hard to accomplish all of that with guys on my mind.
Guys are too complicated, they say women are? I call bullshit.
Guys think that its ok to kiss on a women and have sex with a women and tell that certain women, that they wanna be with YOU, and then go off to someone else and do the same. Once again, I call bullshit.
I have more respect then that, I mean don't get me wrong, i would LOVE to have sex with you, and kiss on you, and for you to tell me you wanna be with me. But if its not just me, then fuck you.
Every women deserves something so much more and so much better then a guy who treats her like dirt.
Like me, i deserves something more. But i should figure out myself before i go off and figure someone else out.
Monday, September 24, 2012
Take one step ahead and don't look back
My dad gave me some very good advice.
He knows there is so much going on with my life, and there is so much that i have to do and i am getting all worked up and stressed about it.
He tells me "Katy, point to your left foot"
I say, "What?! Why?"
He says "Put out your left foot"
So i put out my left foot and he tells me that i just took a little step closer to my future.
He tells me "Little steps at a time, and there is no need to look back"
Makes a whole lot of sense to someone that has trouble n o t looking back.
But I'll try. I am trying. It may take a while but i'll do it.
<3
He knows there is so much going on with my life, and there is so much that i have to do and i am getting all worked up and stressed about it.
He tells me "Katy, point to your left foot"
I say, "What?! Why?"
He says "Put out your left foot"
So i put out my left foot and he tells me that i just took a little step closer to my future.
He tells me "Little steps at a time, and there is no need to look back"
Makes a whole lot of sense to someone that has trouble n o t looking back.
But I'll try. I am trying. It may take a while but i'll do it.
<3
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