I hope that one day, other people hope, just like me

Everyday i hope for a better day, i hope that my life will change in ways that nobody can explain... but in good ways.
Id hope that id become rich with lots of money.
Id hope that one day i would be the best mom in the whooleee world.
and i hope that one day ill be comfortable enough to wear a bikini in the summertime JUST because other girls can pull it off.
Certain things that id HOPED i could be are only because other people want me to be them, or are expecting me to be them.
I can only be me.
I can only be the best mom that i can be, and hope that my son knows it.
I can only be rich if i invent some kind of electronic device that makes it so everyone forgets about the world and whats in front of them.
and i can only wear a sexy bikini in the summertime if i work out and eat right, but to tell you the trust, I'm to lazy to work out and i LIKEE a fat greasy cheeseburger from McDonald's.
I know its not right but one day, maybe i will be rich or famous or be the best mom EVERR... or be so slim that OTHER girls are jealous of ME instead the other way around.
But only a girl can dream.

All the time in the world, and no one to share it with

Ok, so dont get so overwhelmed by this title. I do have someone to share it with. Just not right this moment.
My Fiance is in the basic training for the army and i havent seen him since january.
Yes yes i know, thats only 2 months; but still. Its hard, and i know there are army wifes out there who know where im coming from.
where do i begin? I really have no idea.
alot has happened since hes been gone.
He gets back in April. 2 more months of this struggle and ill be back in his arms<3
I havent blogged in a while now, so i dont really know what to say.
theres not reallyy anything that is on my mind that i can rant about. So ill just end it. Lol.
The next post will be something more interesting than this.
I promise you(: