No longer a teen; but not yet a woman

So today is my 20th birthday.
Im finally no longer a teen.
Its great(:
I mean 20 isnt 21 but its getting there.
Im getting closer and closer to becoming a woman.
Dont get my wrong, i am a female.
But i have not fully matured into a grown woman.
There are so many things that I need to do in my life and i feel like my whole world is fast fowarding
into time and i cant slow it down.
I wish there was a pause button in life, so that i can stop, take a look, and think.
Im 20, and soon enough ill be 30...
Then ill  be 45 and then 50.
And my parents may or may not be alive.
I need to grow up before everyone around me is gone.
Now that i am no longer a teenager i need to step up and be an adult,
be a sister, a daughter, a wife and a mother that i know i can be.
So for everyone who feels the need to put me down, just stop and rememberr.
Im trying. Im doing my absolute best to be the best i can be.
And it may take a few days, a week or a month to become that best, but at least it will happen.
I W I L L be a woman.
I W I L L be that person that my son looks up to.
I will be stronger<3